jaybeasley2

our dreams are like
playing with water balloons while
pacing back and forth on hot coals
out in the rest of the world we
realize how important the little things are
there are only so many
useable deeply important moments in a life
never can tell when those minutes arrive
inside our existences we know
those who are meant to impact will do so because
young and old all get the same hours in a day
times when people are meant for you become obvious
ever been so aware of time it becomes annoying?
still feel like you are always late for something
tasting the ability to plan without being driven crazy
evolve and embrace the
devotion that you should recieve

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I have to believe
that I can go on living
in this skin I received
with all the things that are wrong with me
all new places to see
and the people who come along with them
when you start over and don’t know where
you want to go
but I do have someone who
I wish to have with me on this ride
and I have a long song to two to give
and I answer questions worse than I ever did
but I can be strong and
make the grade after I am
coming back in from the cold
and even though I do things crazy
I am faithful and I am here for you if you need me
I have come a long way
and I have got a few hundred more days
but the feeling is not so bad
when you know you are experiencing
the best thing that you ever have
and I get to be near you
and have a cup of coffee or two
and if this is the last day
that I ever get to see the suns rays
at least I know
I am not going to get off the ground
until I have
made my peace…

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behind my eyes i saw
until i wanted to really know
it was when she took my shirt
letting me know it would never be mine
definitely surprised when she asked me
if i would give her my everything and i
never should give that to her again
gave her my ring that i had purchased
and knew i would never get it back
then i achieved a place for us
to live and her design for a room was good
every time i caved in
never insulted her or put her down once
then in return i get treated like
i should smile
only when i have seen through it all
nobody sees me like her sky does

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as the world is
sometimes seems the only view you
see is usually from the
underside of a tire
mornings often start with an
endurance test of memories of last night
putting on clothes and a smile and going
out into the world
sort of feels like torture
in my face
tiny minutes fight its way
in and seems like hours once again
veins of pain grow deep in my brain
if i take a bit to just breathe and try to think
then i recall just how lucky i am
you are in my life so everything will be alright

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don’t question the wind
it cannot tell you why it chose this way
stay away from stopping the river
toward a point of joining friends is all it has
always beware of trying to protect from snow
nothing but covered ground is safe from gravity
careful with lightning too
even if it know you it may not recognize you
perhaps you also have a friend who
really moves unrecognizingly fast
ending the past far from the future
for each time you go out
every day is different
right now you do not know if you will become less tired
empty your mind
needing this time
coming full circle
ending that reinvents itself
sometimes should come to pass

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