jaybeasley2

relieved that things are
ever so slightly improving day by day
there were times i wondered how to get here
unbelievable how far you can fall
re-live mistakes or learn and grow forth
needlessly finding the areas that hurt
each day does not have to be a struggle
dare to walk that cliff edge
so that you can feel what others do
implied by the final minutes
that brought this series of thoughts around
unless the fast sadness fades
and takes with it the worries of the year
these hours will enjoy themselves
inspiration is a tool for the brain
on the occasion you have to express something
nearly every day this should be applied

—

sometimes you have to be
wondering, where did
that thought come from?
the wishing for today,
the wondering what could be the only
path that leads
you away from so much pain?
the collection of memories are like a river
and we all flow down it
in a simple single set of
beliefs that we are
can cause a tidepool to
control you without
you even being aware of it
and I can’t say I will be
strong like this forever
and I know that I will miss you in the
days that make us apart
but the leaf that dropped
from a family tree
settled nicely on the tiniest
spider web of possibility
until it had come to the convergence of
moments in time and space
that would join all the threads together
and then it dropped
to the spot in that river
and flowed on its way
to the nexus point
and then the rest of the journey
was the same as it was for all of us,
not a choice as much as it was
a lot of options to enjoy
and all in due time…

--

i am the many faces of your mate
nearly making you cry with the saddest stories or
sometimes the song that warms you up
if you need a smile i am your joking jester
dancing for you when you plead for entertainment
enering the kitchen as your private chef each night
buying you the ice cream you want now i know your favorite flavor
unless you need something killed which i would also do
really ready to take you out anywhere fun or just
nest on the couch when you want to just decompress
in case you need a hug i am always near
need a companion for any of your trials, dear?
got me right here

              --

do not make a path
in the way of someone else’s future
some of our best choices
may find a way to become our worst mistakes
across the years you have to find out
young and old we all have very similar
lessons to learn from the errors more than trials
eventually you take your wisdom when
another person makes the bad day better
now you see once again
it may be the early bird that gets the worm
nobody warned you that the second mouse
gets the cheese in the trap

—

Cradled in the hands of a tree
On the afternoon of a quiet sunset
Long strands of spiderwebs play tag
Little winking flashes of light strobe the glass
Excited inside of the two lanterns of
Cold blue shine and the spiders of Love
That crawl across your skin in a warm draft
In the veins under your hair and the back of your arm
Violet leaves of a flower that is dying
Even as we all must pass, when it is our time
Billowing drapes that reveal the horizon
Roaming around the house with a fever in the blood
Always answering your questions with the sounds of a beast
Incredible purrs slowly unfurling
Now the sky fades darkness

when you said what you did
it became clear exactly how you
let the caring overrun everything else
like a wolf who will not share a bone or
playing children who each need thier own toy and crib
only you are the kind who shall
wait as ong as you have to in order to
get what they want or not let someone else get what they want
ribs that cage the rage and
do not deny the diamond blades cutting your insides
empty nest that was never full has a
story to tell if there was any interest yet
there are damaged taste buds to
reveal how off the mark your preferences are
on the occasion that you go that deep into self analysis
yours is the mind only interested in your own
evolution into the type of person you would rather be,
destiny is the clown chasing you

              ---