as the sun comes up
and the cloud cover rolls in
I look at my arms
and see all the scars that
were not there before and
I think about if I may
survive until my
next birthday but I
wonder where you put
the silver elephant I gave you and
I wonder if I can even
make it through this week yet
here I am
Saint Patrick not by my side
Pain in every part of my body
no water to drink
no shoes on my feet
but if the red moon rises and
I can still use my mind
then I can make it
I have seen worse times
and I can keep you
in my mind
then I am happy