Dominate system

dumb as i feel some days
often that is just a passing thought
mostly just when i need to have confidence
it arrives with a backpack full of worry
nothing can stop me if i don’t want it too
attempt the impossible before i would give up
those goals aren’t going to accomplish themselves
empty nests and wild waves time of year
dedicated to living up to my polar bear family history
strong enough to push through whatever comes my way
yield to no problems and meet head on all objections
storms don’t stop me and no person can either
the inanimate objects even watch out for me around here
end the frustration
make a new resistance
stay true to your story

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Undeliverable

while a few hours pass
inside, a whole new realization comes in
shifting how a person gets thought about
happy memories tinged with slight regret
enough time will not ever go by
surrounded by what could be of some comfort
until young eyes say goodbye
now that old memories seem like photographs
dim settings seem so very calming
everyone needs silent time sooner or later
like the ones who need extra time to heal
include those you care about in your communication
value what you have when you have it
evoke the best in others by
remembering to be that best version of yourself
equal parts grace and fortitude then
death is not something to be afraid of

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Stormcloud

letting go of the tension and
ending the grasp on anxiety,
after all, only so much time is given,
doing my best to value what
instances i had that i can recall,
now that only by memory and by love,
getting along in life like a
struggle more and more day by day,
these moments torn apart in the remembering,
offering pain and relief at the same time,
remedy is passing years but until then
maybe in due time the good will outweigh the bad,
can i just find a way
like the torture will end with the right treatment,
only if i can get out of this place,
until the arrival of my final days,
damned to be exactly blessed
staying here next to my love

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Determined

from the moment we first met i knew,
right now i would give anything to have you near,
as soon as i say something i want to take it back,
normally i would go for a walk right about now,
there were times when it was the only thing,
in the world that would make me feel better,
can not even talk about it yet but
do know why i am having so much trouble,
every single stress is related to letting go,
take a quick taste before you throw the rest away,
exit the reason to give everything and get nothing,
reveal the corrections you feel i need
maybe i will be good enough for you,
impacted by how many times you have been driven crazy,
nobody cares for you the way that i do
enduring anything i have to do to make it home to you,
don’t ever forget how much i adore you

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Optional

accepting where you are at and
not settling in to the same old rut
deny the comfortable complacency
organized by the mindset of not experementing
perpetuated beneath such a uninspired roof
twisted all up inside from years of mistreatment
including amounts of time locked up and undefended
or arriving at the stage where works are commanded
nightmares are made of moments like these
almost every torture leads back to things like these
longing for something you may never see again and
doing your best to do whatever you can to not think of that
ending the nights by knocking the mind out ’till morning
agents of change sneaking all around the personality
there are times i need you near me, honey
hate to picture passing away without your kisses

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Incomplete

if it was
not such a surprise, i
could have been here before and on
occasion i think about how i was here long ago
many moons were spent looking upwards
piecing together the collective unconscious
like universal philosophy
exactly mirrored in a dark bowl of soup
times when the night actually keeps you awake
every moment you open your eyes the
tension rises and the
arrival begins of the thousand mile stare
looking as if a marathon has started or
keeping concentration like a cross-country pilot
stay solid in where you are aiming

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Introduction

venting as you rush out the door
every part is aching to escape
racing to the car and over the hill
yearning to be hand in hand with you as
quietness joins up with the road
unusual futures are getting ready for us all
impatience has given up trying to effect
calm moments bring you to tension relief
keeping the heart pure for this reason
inspect every little element of a soul so pretty
nearby the wind is giving some signals
tasting the passion
ride the highway while singing to yourself
on the tip of my tongue is your name
doing a quick little re-assessment
until a sunset comes
cooling you off is just the cloud’s job
these song lyrics are so perfect
i want you kissing me more than i want food or sleep
ours is a specific understanding
nobody raises my spirits like your mind

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Ownership

getting on the hardest adventure
riddled with reasons to keep going
even when you doubt how to still be here
after the start of this new season of life
things look better and brighter and not
only the moment right before sleep is the best
when this month is done the energies rumble
next week should take its time arriving
ears that don’t hear after a certain hour with
recieved requests to connect only to you
sustained over a valley of being drawn in different diections
having to make, need, rush, persue, play and pry
it was a person i like and respect who said
place the ability to keep working, producing and creating in me

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Wait movement

when i saw you here i
awoke from where i was
it reminded me of where i hoped
that i could be if all the stars
in line ganged up which shone upon each other
now that i telephone call it is odd
give me just one more chance to
make every word count
only this month is
vitally important to my next actions
empty my pockets
make my year special
ease my mind
never trouble my soul
take me home

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Choice

Re-envision the last thing I drew
Edit the emotions that stood still again
Multiple ways I lost my way
Intense as a memory can truly be
Time has a way of coming back around
Lists that are now a template of the past
In an effort to make the rain and plants return
Fine as a grain of sand in a glass
Engage the alone time we missed together

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