jaybeasley2

some of the moments that make up the
end of day
play across the mind like a movie
except upside down and in reverse
radiating light and heat as I prepare
arrival as the energy is ready to explode
through the door and up the road
explanations not required and set to go off
wasting time is no longer an option
off in the distance the sound of people rises
roaring in the ears from the silence
like a heartbeat after a long race
during those stretched out lasting eternal moments
songs that remind me i came back for you

—

And then
At last
When the final sun rays
Of the day arrive
It is stunning
Like cups of coffee and pumpkin pie
Like back porches and fireflies
The meaning of memories
Are a long lost
Friend I didn’t know I had
And the best way
To say I missed you
Is right here next to you my dear

do not doubt how easy it can be
ending up just disappearing
can you believe that one day you are just gone
into the future and people wonder where you went
decide to move forward and
evoke the way that you really wish to be
unload all those past regrets and
needless worries about what
could go wrong and instead make it all go right for you
only so many ways that the sun can fall on you
none of the beauty can be seen by eyes that are closed
vital to being recharged is
each person who can give good energy and experiences
normal life is not what you wanted, so
test the borders and make attempts but have no regrets
if you don’t live to the fullest you won’t know what you are capable
of and then you may someday wonder what should’ve happened
now get out there and grab life hard
across the years and each moment that you want to
love what you do

                             --

yours is the face
I saw in my dreams
and I have to see
if you exist where I have seen
I am looking at the shiny surface
of my watch
to predict how long it will be before you
let me be near you again
there are stones all along the mantle
and a onyx night is out of
the giant pane of glass
and we do not ever want to leave
beneath the tree was a
tiny box for that long ago
and we have to finished our drinks before
it is time to show the
customary gathering of our senses
into a relaxing tub of comforters
if the statue by the fireplace
has the amount of movement we both will show
as the wearing on of the light
may I tell you that my best memory this year
is being with you from
that first night we met

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show me how much you can care

evidence you are here for me

evoke the emotions that I know you must have

keep the good energy as close to your mind as you can

include me in your future plans

not that it would be that hard to picture

growing out my hair to hide my face because

almost eye-to-eye with my own goofy smile at

the thought of you wanting to be here in my life

taking a minute to think about every direction

every way that an impacted year can go

nothing is as fun as these nights out

torn between partying harder or laying off the gas pedal

in due time we shall balance everything correctly

off in the distance a cold wind rises up

nudging us up inside & below a blanket so warm

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faces that compare
your every move
to what should be done
and the crossing of a border
on the time when it is risky
when you get up and move
because you know you have to
the cause of your last day here
makes the goodbye that much more
and the cold will fade
even if the memories won’t
and a common mistake
is not even taking one thing
with you when you leave
being so distant from the way you once were
and making your next year
the very best one ever
eventually means you need to keep
your head up
because no one lives forever
so this was meant to be