jaybeasley2

revenge has left my system
employing a different tact now that I
stay aware of the disappointment i avoid yet
pursue the justice i see the future holds
empathize with struggles of every size
coming around a corner with the power like a flood
taking out tall trees and distracting energies
ready to emphasize the turn of this new page because
each of us forced to chase income as if it was
questions that rise up like really bad perfume
underlines the broken parts of the society
if you have to ask then you are in the wrong
repair the things that moved mountains for you
endure every day to get your time
don’t doubt i will do anything for you

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effort matters if you have something to do or not
normal isn’t some idea that really matters anymore
tranquil times have now ended
eventually excuses are worse for wear
rediculous reasons we come up with for anything we do
inside a devoted number of people who
need to have a person who cares for them be very close
getting over it like a critical injury to the heart
access to my inner self was so wise
let your guard down enough to remember that hurt
take a minute to be where you were when it happened
everyone has at least one moment like that in thier life
redeeming my soul has been
not any fear of trying things the crazy way
across the miles i know that you felt me
telling you complaints is the only fear i have at home
equal right have never really existed
letting me know how much you care is all i need
it may never happen but i understand that now
for each day passing more of the mask comes off
ending every day wanting your love

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as these beginning conversations
nicely droop across the air at work
doing my best to not show where i live
soaking a heart in the hopes that barely exist
eventually that same road is where i go again
each hour i remind myself to be sure and
tell nobody about our little thoughts like spiders
hanging around every single place i go and
everything i do has bits of thier web in it
from now on i will just watch my words very carefully
offering only an opinion if it is asked for
rough as everything is, i am made of solid stone
every night i rumble harder than the night before
some moods depend on what the universe provides
today i pray to find the gift of relaxation

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some of the moments that make up the
end of day
play across the mind like a movie
except upside down and in reverse
radiating light and heat as I prepare
arrival as the energy is ready to explode
through the door and up the road
explanations not required and set to go off
wasting time is no longer an option
off in the distance the sound of people rises
roaring in the ears from the silence
like a heartbeat after a long race
during those stretched out lasting eternal moments
songs that remind me i came back for you

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And then
At last
When the final sun rays
Of the day arrive
It is stunning
Like cups of coffee and pumpkin pie
Like back porches and fireflies
The meaning of memories
Are a long lost
Friend I didn’t know I had
And the best way
To say I missed you
Is right here next to you my dear

do not doubt how easy it can be
ending up just disappearing
can you believe that one day you are just gone
into the future and people wonder where you went
decide to move forward and
evoke the way that you really wish to be
unload all those past regrets and
needless worries about what
could go wrong and instead make it all go right for you
only so many ways that the sun can fall on you
none of the beauty can be seen by eyes that are closed
vital to being recharged is
each person who can give good energy and experiences
normal life is not what you wanted, so
test the borders and make attempts but have no regrets
if you don’t live to the fullest you won’t know what you are capable
of and then you may someday wonder what should’ve happened
now get out there and grab life hard
across the years and each moment that you want to
love what you do

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