kno

Posted on November 4, 2014 by jaybeasley2

ridiculous
you have gone down
and you have been down that path
serious
you don’t even know your own pain
you have been there again
and there are a few pasts
that came out to say hi to you again
but once we were there
you saw your friends
and it wasn’t like it once was
but the moon is out
and your vote is in
and if I knew you once
I will kno you again
but I saw the end
of our only family
who was the connection
between you and me
and there
is not a good cloud in the sky
or a good woman here tonight
and if I could set you free
you would get away from him
and you could be here with
her and me and thee
only one time will I say this again
the crying moon is not your only companion
and please just write me
I will miss you like a sad last date
and the last cup of coffee
and you will know
I am here for you
you are here for me

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write

Posted on November 3, 2014 by jaybeasley2

there is only so far
before the collapse comes in
like a cloud that seemed small
but with enough hail for the whole night
and you have been bitter
but I have seen moods worse that that
and you have been hostile
but there are but only a few good reasons for that
you have a tense feel about you
and there were only so many days to go through
before the end is here
I cannot get enough time
and if I could manufacture more
it would still fall short of the
amount desired
and to try to make things perfect from here would only let you loose my dear
and I have got to get out a few thousand words
before dawn
has it really been so long
between the time we have agreed
and the time we reconnected
but I have to admit
parts of me are okay with that
because I drove myself down
like a car purchased to only get from one place
to the other
then who cares
I could be angry about the personal life
or I could dig up the
many things that upset me
about all my irreconcilable
inconsiderate redefinitions
that made it happen in the first place
instead I move on to putting it down on paper
because the point will be made
either way…

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mood

Posted on October 31, 2014 by jaybeasley2

paced off the steps
from here to there
and saw a few fires still burning
but where were you
and why was it so hard to show up?
I know that the clouds rolled in
and you had to get going
but not before the midnight hour scared you off
so this is the day to
hide away
and the night to come out screaming
or scared
but on this occasion
lets just get a few things straight
once you complete
the drink you have
and held my hand
like last nights plan
there was a bit of blood on my mask
and you had to be host
to the occasional growl
as you could dream
and not think of the work
on your plate tomorrow
because It is away from the cold
and you have a heat near you
and there are fellow friends to make
but I cannot say goodbye to you
so I will be here every time
until this world says
you have had enough

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rhythm

Posted on October 30, 2014 by jaybeasley2

waking the whole room
with the sounds produced
and shaping the evening
to the grip of my hand
on the minds that are here
bold as a marble chair
and the mission I have with you present
flowing out creativity to be manifested
on a drum beat
my hands have multiple cuts on them
and the burns are healing at their own rate
but I have my paint
thrown out across the air
and this is making my painful personal news
easier to get over
because the crush of chemistry and
the flow of my own
inter-extensive individual gravitational pull
is the vivid sound
and the slow drawing out
of a dripping new curse
that each note brings
and I can make my own momentous
advancement of time
motions that mint
each day as fast as possible
because that is how I am

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go

Posted on October 29, 2014 by jaybeasley2

to see this forest
is brings its own scene
making a sound
like ghosts roaming around
and I know you remember back when we
went to the school so close
but now we have to get a new horizon
and the changes since then
are not as scary as the world we live in now
with the scars being given a way
to enter a brand new day
and I wonder if you know
that we both remember things differently than each other
and the growl of a beast
is where I am more comforted at this time
as I have to get a lot done
before the next days dawning
or else the pitchfork will do me in
and I no longer flinch when it stabs me
when you see this last second decision
to join the fight
it is not a last ditch effort to
struggle or flee
it is a sound choice
to pick up the pace for the final leg
of the race I made
to get a delirious joy
in the opening of minds
this time, free…

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begin

Posted on October 28, 2014 by jaybeasley2

in a resisting moment
a calming sound
of the water being poured
before I cannot take any more
I have to go
get up and move around about
because the sunshine coming through
the glass cubes to my left
are reminding me to pursue
the days last rays before cold sets in
and I find myself resisting
the sitting still second
because I have given up on holding back
and now I know I need
the travel of a few miles or two
to assure the feet
that I have a good reason
to work as hard as I do
and now it is really true
nothing is too late
if you give yourself the right tools
you can build a brand new future
so come out from behind those walls
and start a ambition engine
once again

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waiting

Posted on October 27, 2014 by jaybeasley2

wanting
reading
breathing
on the porch hoping for more;
if you were here right now
you better not have any plans
for the next several hours.
just to think of it makes me laugh
and I know that you worried about
something falling from space
just to hit you
but like that show about it
I know you are great at worrying
anxiety like a friend you keep.
but you are a phenomenal one
a fiery beat that is, in turn, shy and fun.
yet a waterfall comes from
the crazy creativity of our joining
a wondrous wild fireplace in winter
our own rainstorm fourth of july
and the sharing of hours we
lose track of;
you don’t see it, but I must
let you know, we are, I think, well about time you observe.
you are the royalty I serve,
my intensity you justly deserve…

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days

Posted on October 27, 2014 by jaybeasley2

you have had everything
I could afford to give you
including my tears
and I would never, ever
have left you here alone
but now I am abandoned
a dog without a home
and nothing will be okay again
unless I find you, my friend
because my back is broken
under the strain of worry
and if you cannot be found
I will miss you
the rest of my days…

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broken portraits.

Posted on October 27, 2014 by jaybeasley2

She is active, calculating in photographic images.
I am less activated, outlining in cloudy impressions.
She becomes quick, trusting these video stills.
I become dull, misbelieving my busted camera.
She mistrusts her belief in her pictured observing, and there is faith in that self doubt.
I see not to distrust, yet I don’t assume from facts in broken portraits.
Questioning her revelations, she forgets why she asked herself.
Answering my revelations, I forget what the questions were.
When proof fails her, she doubts everything.
When proof fails me, I am correct again.
She continues fast and sharp, in her clarity.
I continue boring and less fast, in my fog.
She wants a plan, without desires or objectivity.
I wish my desires, with no plan that I can see.
She has new confusion in her understanding.
I have new understanding in my confusion.

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welcome to the world day

Posted on October 24, 2014 by jaybeasley2

as the night
came in to greet me
I shook a past year off
and I stood up and made a toast
to make the day clear
and I have seen a lot today
the seafood was incredible
even though I was far from the ocean
and there was a shadow falling
I had seen a thousand people downtown
in the city that keeps
a full mile underneath of it
I had a great day with a
few drinks in my body
and I have been around for many years
I do not have the words or the way
to thank all my friends and family
for the years of
being there
while I get a few more hours under my belt
and I remember the high school years
fun and trouble and snow and bonding camaraderie
I remember the college years
full of times I think of if I can recall them
and the past ten years
of becoming able and wise or at least better
if not better off
and the talents I have are being used
to make me happy
and the people in my life
I hoped and dreamed to have them in my existence as I got on
in years
and there doesn’t need to be cake or ice cream
for a birthday to fulfill wishes
and the night to be the best one ever
because I can relive, and enjoy
the whole last year
happily,
happily so

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