i

Posted on September 30, 2014 by jaybeasley2

i cannot explain
unless i compare it all to sound
because our holding
hands while i give you time
is a litany of volcanic hymn
while the flavor of our
just letting the river of darkness
take over our car is
a beat shaking the speakers and
laying down with you for a nap
is the glazed golden voices of a
choir that grasps your mind
yet the best is when you
open up and tell me how you
feel and think
sounds like a classical start
of a song that enlightens
like the gates of heaven opening up
and a most holy
rain of notes
arrive like kisses…

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Purpose and pleasure

Posted on September 28, 2014 by jaybeasley2

Playing on a lovely day
Using what is left of the light
Right when the storm is coming
Placing my hand on yours is what I need
Once I come back to the fire
Symbolizing our happiness
Evoking passion I can’t control
And it is far too long until
Nightly kissing will occur
Dimly lit bedroom
Putting my heart inside your box
Lips letting themselves rest on lips
Ending the sorrow we have borne
Awash in this togetherness sensations
Sometimes I think I should have pain to
Use instead of this purposeful pleasure
Relieving you of the downtimes you don’t need
Emulating the joy I waterfall on you

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test

Posted on September 26, 2014 by jaybeasley2

don’t take it that way
it could only be me
but as a prank would go
you are scared of your shadow
blink twice and you can miss a ghost
or turn around at the right time
and you can catch a thief
but you don’t trust me
I am writer and my words aren’t yours
you don’t ever know who I am a poet for
and you have a handful of reasons to doubt
from your past as well as my own
and you liked me as long as
it was all for you and you alone
but now you second guess every song
and romance movies take far too long I gotta go
to show up and give you release
for the world is here to hurt you
and you never give in unless you give up
and I am here to make you not stop
and there is only one person who can speak to your brain
I used to care too much but things have changed
and you are as far away as
a champion criminal who saw the way
to get off clean
without the use of a person who needs you
but you just left and flew across
the country when you could
I am missing you even though
I am here in your apartment
with you…

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Plains

Posted on September 24, 2014 by jaybeasley2

when I am so suffering
it is not about the missing of
a few of the important people
and the red sky at night
or the dark drinks and sparkly lights of the city
or even the rainy forest we have made,
it is about goals and
making the gate,
this is the eternal aim
when the final finished product
is on your mind every day
as a grateful morning is
coated with enough caffeine
to make it through the whole entire day,
it was a bruise or a pain
that even made you slow down
and I have improved the need
to work right through the hurt
and make my daily
experience put in its place when
the last way was just not
enough of a struggle, I made my
way down for the boiling heat was
just as forgiving as the people
who took everything from me in
the first place yet I wanted to
be here because it made me
be here in appreciation of
the place where spoiled bullshit
doesn’t happen…

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Stay

Posted on September 24, 2014 by jaybeasley2

yet
when there comes a time to describe
all those feelings you internalize
will you be able to let me see
what it is that let you be hypnotized
by me, as the sleeping hand of yours
is clasped by mine
there is a sigh you give
that I longed for a thousand times,
I lay next to you
though I am so
awake because closeness to you is
what I have
to make me sane
if I
had any way with words
I would explain the incomprehensible way you
take away my pain,
you called me from
so long being gone
I danced in the
grocery aisle to our song
because you came along
and I adore your
understanding…

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flow

Posted on September 22, 2014 by jaybeasley2

right now is not today,
it is merely a measure of time,
a snapshot of a moment
in this voyage of a lifetime;
the direction we choose
and the events we see are not us,
just the interaction of our
energies in a flowing river of
infinity, where our inspiration and
destiny and determination swirl
about us and speak to other spirits
that all conflux, apex, a tiny river
universe, a water curve so
twisting; sometimes a
movie is an album, sometimes a song
is a movie, this existence of us
coming together is a forest,
the roots that intertwine are
unseen, the branches patterns that
redesign sky, and as you kiss
me…the water the sky the trees
this moment, everything fades to a
delicate touch and I feel that
I am known by you,
in this intimate transcendent
unusual dedication
of heart

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ink

Posted on September 19, 2014 by jaybeasley2

don’t want to even
go out don’t want to even experience
any mighty negative bullets of energy
from the auras of strangers out in that
disruptive experiment of a
walk in the concrete forest we call life
I can only try so much more
put forth in the effort to prepare for it
and an open door has been seen
and if you can see
the sky and you return to
a feeling you once felt so strongly
while you knew you were going to be
the one who was
coming back home from so very far away
even when you didn’t know the
joy and passion that helped you so much when you knew you
needed it most and the
days were short but the nights were long
as if we had met at a different latitude than could have happened
and I knew that the blood in my heart
pounded for you,
it is true…

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not here

Posted on September 18, 2014 by jaybeasley2

on the last night
we would ever share together
you made me experience the missed steps
that our dance was fermenting
so I didn’t feel so bad I was exiting
no cold wind woke me up before then
and very likely would not ever again
yet I was glad to have found just such a friend
danger is not something I have feared ever since
while I hunted the battlefield
of twisted unavoidable serendipity
or fashionable poisoning synchronicity
I was invisible but helping everybody
it was positive that you somehow still saw me
surprised but expecting exactly what you would see
not knowing but correctly anticipating
the screaming and the dreams
how could I see how you would remember me
ran all over that scene

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ah

Posted on September 17, 2014 by jaybeasley2

I have a pain that
comes to visit me
some days when I forget I am
only human
it creeps around my
brain for a while
to wake up all the self-
hatred there reminding me of all the
bad things I have done, to make
me feel like I deserve it, to convey
through my nerves what my
emotions already know, but when
it gets so bad I cannot stop
to think, all I have to do
is to remind myself that I have
what you gave me to sometimes
put my hand on, and it
symbolizes there is someone
who wants me to know,
even when a forest fire of hurt is
here in my home,
I am loved,
and that gives me strength
to go on

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NOW

Posted on September 17, 2014 by jaybeasley2

can I explain what
makes me happy after you have
made me the most joyful person I
could ever possibly have been
only when I see you
moving forward with this
plan to have each other around for
the rest of our existence
that is what makes you come across
as a perfect personality with only the
best way to accomplish the
finish line that
I have been aiming for ever since
I imagined the bulls-eye in
the first place
and now I know that I
want to live, really live, more than
I ever did in my entire life
and I have you to thank for that
so now I have to
straighten up and fly right
get all my shit together
for once on my goddamn existence

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