and see the forest

Posted on January 21, 2017 by jaybeasley2
as these beginning conversations
nicely droop across the air at work
doing my best to not show where i live
soaking a heart in the hopes that barely exist
eventually that same road is where i go again
each hour i remind myself to be sure and
tell nobody about our little thoughts like spiders
hanging around every single place i go and
everything i do has bits of thier web in it
from now on i will just watch my words very carefully
offering only an opinion if it is asked for
rough as everything is, i am made of solid stone
every night i rumble harder than the night before
some moods depend on what the universe provides
today i pray to find the gift of relaxation
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emotional emergency

Posted on January 19, 2017 by jaybeasley2
effort put forth when it gets you nowhere
might be a good example on this occasion
of all the feelings that come along with being
treated like something is more important than i predicted
if i was looking for a reason to seek another life
or even saw how i was treated from an outsiders perspective
now i have eyes that are more open and i am
allowing myself to do what makes me feel warm
letting my emotions happen is sort of like
each day is an experience unlike the one before it
making a home place or a loving feeling like a memory
equipped to search but waiting for the
right moment to
get ahold of this emabrace that apparently
exists in so many peoples mind but not my own
nowadays my very own thought process traps me
cornered inside my open minded exploration
you brought me up to your heaven
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after the hypocracy

Posted on January 18, 2017 by jaybeasley2
around the same time that life went through
finding out where the future leads kind of changes
torn between the need for security and
emptyness that lives in you when you let passion die
roaming the vacant halls of my heart shows much
tempest of romance i always wished for
hiding in a bottle that betrays its weariness more each day
emitting a mood unique to itself
having kept good care of such a valued object
you never feel sorry for somebody you stepped on
perhaps up on a shelf is a slightly safer choice than this
one day at a time is the best appoach to this situation
can you put yourself in the shoes of who lives there?
recieve the words of affection like a gift in the mailbox
as it happens i have not recieved that in a long time
collecting all my time
you never feel sorry for somebody this lucky
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delete and destroy

Posted on January 8, 2017 by jaybeasley2
directed to test the surroundings
emotions have been switched on now when we are
leveraged experiences like past persona passing away
ending the time of doing less than i could
terminated agreements are waiting with friends on hand
eager to bring up the mistakes of all kinds and types but
after what i have seen nothing really matters anymore
no more putting the final foot forward without thought
dedicating my actions to the future i need
during these times the final result is vital because
ending up where your aim could be
something to keep on the tip of your mind always
take my arm and lets find out where our wishes reside
readiness is a component of all successfull plans
only when i can finally show you my heart will
yearnings become our two shared lives together
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permanent emergency

Posted on January 7, 2017 by jaybeasley2
pursuit of a better place to be
easy to believe but not easy to perceive
remember the desire no matter what happens
minor misunderstandings like a symbol of big problems
accidents that happen to be a
needless torture that is being put up with
ending the need to think about anything personal
neat arrangements of
these uncomfortable moments in piles of depression
evidence of what i go through for you
must i get so much less than what i need from you
each time people get treated bad they gain new walls
right in time for my own round of
getting my mind right
eventually i have got to get on living the path that
now is shouting at me every time i sit still
can i just be myself?
you bet i can
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my skin is hungry again

Posted on January 5, 2017 by jaybeasley2
maybe i didn’t make it obvious or
you just didn’t notice how bad it was
some of the times you saw my needs
kisses like this can heal as much as they feel
inspiration finds me in a way that seems
night time and fog joining up as a mystery
inside the desire of unobserveable freedoms
stuck into a box without walls or corners
suffocating in the hopes and dreams
that are fullfilled
after all that you have been through who can blame you
right now i just want to be held but it is
very unlikely you will give me that sometime soon
in the last few months we have cuddled
now i see that is enough
got to admit that once in a while i need affection
aware that all i ask for is important
giant desires that are struggling for air and
adored by a painfull ache in a suffering heart
instead of waiting for what i want i should ust go get it
now the stab of night time cold feels good
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determined planning

Posted on January 4, 2017 by jaybeasley2
do not dwell on your mistakes
every day can be a new beginning
take your time when you want to if it makes
easier to take everything you have to do
really getting the most out of your times
means trading in the stress that is here for
inclinations to just take everything in stride
nowadays living in sadness and fear is way too common
either you give in to being run over or you find your way out
different people have different ways of getting by
peer into the depths of yourself if you
like to learn about the meaning of your life
across the minutes of silence you can feel
needs that involve a calm and peaceful place
names of parts of this world that inspire and have passion
imperfect things and areas are what are even better if
near by are those who appreciate originality
get into the idea that variety is the spice
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decide unconventional

Posted on January 2, 2017 by jaybeasley2
do not doubt how easy it can be
ending up just disappearing
can you believe that one day you are just gone
into the future and people wonder where you went
decide to move forward and
evoke the way that you really wish to be
unload all those past regrets and
needless worries about what
could go wrong and instead make it all go right for you
only so many ways that the sun can fall on you
none of the beauty can be seen by eyes that are closed
vital to being recharged is
each person who can give good energy and experiences
normal life is not what you wanted, so
test the borders and make attempts but have no regrets
if you don’t live to the fullest you won’t know what you are capable
of and then you may someday wonder what should’ve happened
now get out there and grab life hard
across the years and each moment that you want to
love what you do
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magical disappearing

Posted on December 31, 2016 by jaybeasley2

must I say what is painful

after all we have been through you

got to know how I feel and

inside the rage of a

common couple of disagreements we have had

always will be on your side and

love you but you would rather be

distinctly caring and slightly cruel before you are

intimate in a carefully loving or even somewhat kind

sort of approach to our definitely

a lot of unpredictable interactions

playing around the areas that each of us are comfortable

perhaps I need to be with a very

easy going type who is capable of saying “i care for you”

at least once in a while or even

really kiss with a passionate feeling once in a while

it is most likely difficult for someone who has never been loved before

now you know how it feels

get it through your head I am here if you want me

 

 

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seeking attention

Posted on December 31, 2016 by jaybeasley2

show me how much you can care

evidence you are here for me

evoke the emotions that I know you must have

keep the good energy as close to your mind as you can

include  me in your future plans

not that it would be that hard to picture

growing out my hair to hide my face because

almost eye-to-eye with my own goofy smile at

the thought of you wanting to be here in my life

taking a minute to think about every direction

every way that an impacted year can go

nothing is as fun as these nights out

torn between partying harder or laying off the gas pedal

in due time we shall balance everything correctly

off in the distance a cold wind rises up

nudging us up inside & below a blanket so warm

 

 

 

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