decide unconventional

Posted on January 2, 2017 by jaybeasley2
do not doubt how easy it can be
ending up just disappearing
can you believe that one day you are just gone
into the future and people wonder where you went
decide to move forward and
evoke the way that you really wish to be
unload all those past regrets and
needless worries about what
could go wrong and instead make it all go right for you
only so many ways that the sun can fall on you
none of the beauty can be seen by eyes that are closed
vital to being recharged is
each person who can give good energy and experiences
normal life is not what you wanted, so
test the borders and make attempts but have no regrets
if you don’t live to the fullest you won’t know what you are capable
of and then you may someday wonder what should’ve happened
now get out there and grab life hard
across the years and each moment that you want to
love what you do
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magical disappearing

Posted on December 31, 2016 by jaybeasley2

must I say what is painful

after all we have been through you

got to know how I feel and

inside the rage of a

common couple of disagreements we have had

always will be on your side and

love you but you would rather be

distinctly caring and slightly cruel before you are

intimate in a carefully loving or even somewhat kind

sort of approach to our definitely

a lot of unpredictable interactions

playing around the areas that each of us are comfortable

perhaps I need to be with a very

easy going type who is capable of saying “i care for you”

at least once in a while or even

really kiss with a passionate feeling once in a while

it is most likely difficult for someone who has never been loved before

now you know how it feels

get it through your head I am here if you want me

 

 

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seeking attention

Posted on December 31, 2016 by jaybeasley2

show me how much you can care

evidence you are here for me

evoke the emotions that I know you must have

keep the good energy as close to your mind as you can

include  me in your future plans

not that it would be that hard to picture

growing out my hair to hide my face because

almost eye-to-eye with my own goofy smile at

the thought of you wanting to be here in my life

taking a minute to think about every direction

every way that an impacted year can go

nothing is as fun as these nights out

torn between partying harder or laying off the gas pedal

in due time we shall balance everything correctly

off in the distance a cold wind rises up

nudging us up inside & below a blanket so warm

 

 

 

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testing inspiration

Posted on December 24, 2016 by jaybeasley2
there are times when i almost think
everything you do is because you care
so it is often an eye-opening surprise
to experience things that you do
in the ways that show you want to be here
not that it matters, but i want you to
get everything out of this life you wish to
induction of a powerfull group of desires that
need to be taken care of to
satisfy the growing monster of ego which can accomplish all
perhaps my heart can grow slowly while
i give to you all the things i can yet
rediculing myself in my own head when
all the things i get worked up about
there should be an off button for thinking
introducing stillness and quiet into our minds
orange sunsets like a calming effect on the body
now is the only moment that counts
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communication intended

Posted on December 23, 2016 by jaybeasley2
coming to the conclusion about
offering myself a new future to fight for
maybe a few things i really want to do
many times i wanted to walk
unusually far and with no particular destination
night is when i also love to sing
it definitely helps to get rid of all the worries
can not help but feel better alone sometimes
as it comes around the tree the moon says hello
taking a brief second to wink and smile
in a journey to the rest behind the clouds
on the occasion i sit on the pier by the water
nails made of steel criss-crossing from the wood
into the image forever forged into my mind
nevermind how long ago i was last here
there are ghosts i stir up all over this state
either near my house or out roaming around
not one holiday do i want to spend without you
don’t mind if we sleep or just sit here
energies up among the stars and around us
direct us to enjoy our lives to the fullest
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unlike talkative ones

Posted on December 23, 2016 by jaybeasley2
until i am a changed person
now i also see how i am arranged
letting myself relax and live my life
in the way i knew i always should
knowledge of the correct path is just a
easy a river to follow downhill when
taking the unspoken of nature into account
aftermath of the times when hurt was a constant companion
like a sneaky roommate who you never talk about
keep guarded is what i have learned i must do
anyone who can read my actions can
tell i am a whirlwind of passions for life
including the little bits of nature in every month now
very glad i no longer have to please all the people in my world
earn the fire of a future pursued
off in the distance like a house on the horizon
not one day more will i hesitate
entering the phase where i am no longer controllable
shining my soul up to the sky
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making it through today

Posted on December 21, 2016 by jaybeasley2
must i find the common ground or
always face how hard this love is
knowing that there are no smiles left in me
in the hall at work others are chatting and i
and i need to go the long way around so i
get to avoid the chit-chat while my heart breaks
introducing the low self esteem and shyness
toward the pain we both know
that dwells in the looks of people who
have lives so perfect they do not know
ribs that ache from crying and bruises
only you know how i would trade my life to have you here
up above my head is where i look to
give myself a moment to readjust
having eye do this is very inconveinient at this time
there are times when i think weird things
odd stuff like how i would rather be
dead than so you unhappy for emotional reasons
ask me for anything and i will get it for you because
yours is the soul i want to be near
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cruel closeness time

Posted on December 20, 2016 by jaybeasley2
coming out of the darkness
rifts that split the comfortable shadows
underneath the blanket of known paths that
echo the dangerous direction that intensity
lets everyone know should not have been taken
cutting through the conversation
like a person who knows they are wanted
on this occasion i have not been given
status enough to know what is required so
energy risies up in me to ust grab it when i have to
never should have stopped in the first place
equal total amounts is pointless
so just go on with your experiences even though
sometimes the entire life of memories come
to rush into your mind all at once and they
insist you realize everything that led you up to this point
might just make you a stronger person if
everyone helped you see your faults and goals
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guarded or protected

Posted on December 17, 2016 by jaybeasley2

giving all of myself and getting little

unless I bend over backwards they may not see me

after this summer so much has changed

replacing the needs of others with my own

during my last minutes in this spot I will

encompass that which has kept

drooling its meanness all over me as I rage

oxygen being my only food for this journey

red marks drying on me where blood once was

playing back and forth with the

reflections off of everything

out of the sky comes droplets of light

tearing like a bunch of holes in a canvass

energizing the walls that keep inner thoughts safe

capsizing motivations for the wrong dimension of future

testing how awake the crawling cruelties convey

every time I run through the wild to you my

day gets better

 

 

 

 

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misplaced conditions

Posted on December 17, 2016 by jaybeasley2

march was so long ago

in the future is next month so far away

shifting in thought because I am

placed in a box and every night and at first

light in the sky I am let out to perform

and do chores required of me

chained up symbols of where young ideas suffer

each time I envision the future

doing what is asked of me every single time

combining plots of escape with designed imagination

on the occasions that I somehow manage to dream at

night it is often of love like a fresh beginning brings

different from being ruled over as I am now

it seems like passion is something only movie actors show

that is the only time I see affection without anguish

intensity and pain are like clothes I am forced to wear

only sleep in a moment of relaxing but sometimes

not even then if reality finds a way to creep in

someday I will get away and be free

 

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