patience and stamina

Posted on May 6, 2016 by jaybeasley2
plenty of times i have been grateful and
always thankful each time i wake up
taking nothing for granted and
inside i am singing all the moments of silence
need for closeness with another person to the surface
causing relief from all the hate and disgrace
each touch removing a bit more pain
and lifting the brain up above the clouds and pettiness
nocturnal sounds from deep inside the darkness
doing everything i can to stay true to the color of my soul
showing these changes i went through since anyone knew me last
tasting the waters after i dive right in
away from the land where insults are conversation
murky water that most people dwell in
including the giving up of a purpose or values
no collection of words can pusuade me now
after the way we met i cannot be defeated
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frantic desperation

Posted on May 4, 2016 by jaybeasley2
forgiving words that were asked for
riddled with hints of shy anticipation
as the sun finally begins to show its face
need to be cared for and really wanted
this is the exact kind of thing that drives me crazy
if i could have one wish it would be to
complete my life by keeping you in it
don’t you think its time to find the origional way
everyone has to go through to mesh together
show me the inner rooms of your heart or
please just let me know how long i have to wait and
end this desire to torture myself forever unless i am with you
ready to give myself over to eternity
ashes in the wind as day slowly gives way to night
there was one thing i wanted before i go
it is to have you drift with me into the futures ocean
only now can i say what i am waiting for
not a moment alone anymore
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snow and holiday

Posted on May 1, 2016 by jaybeasley2
showing where you have come from
not that place where you were born but an
other location that made you who you are
while the growing was mostly in the soul
afterwards a whole different person existed
needing to devour each new thing learned
despite the impact of many negative discoveries you
held yourself up in the positivity of humanity and
ordered yourself to never be brought down
lost in a realm that is so very different yet
is, in fact, the same place you were just last year,
do not stop, do not hesitate, do not doubt and
always keep learning also always keep progressing
you tell me what i need to hear
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the final days home

Posted on April 30, 2016 by jaybeasley2
tested by the time when
hard times have hurt our whole activity
ended by the good feeling brought by
friends gathered and rooms warm
increased moment and places we have always hoped
not to miss the chance to visit
amidst the flow of history’s river
leaning toward the connected lands
deemed a requirement for the eyes to percieve
answering a proposition that our lives will ponder
yet the connections we were lucky to get
should the whole entire week come crashing down
horrible as the winter was there is a new moon
on the horizon rising up, the fury within
me can find the fire in this moment in life
every day with you is glorious
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the connection light

Posted on April 29, 2016 by jaybeasley2
taking a moment to realize the goodness of
having someone here for me
even when i feel myself slipping and i am
caught between the great mood and the dark times
only you can calm the waters and bring out
nights calming blanket of sweet sleepy connection
nicely compared to the relief of anxiety
evry morning when i wake up and you are still real
captivated by everything you do and
then i know i am grinning right at your face
inside my brain i curl up happily at your
open arms and i want to give you my everything
none of our days have been uneventfull
letting me into your life is the best day i ever had
including you in my days is like ice cream birthdays
go ahead and ask me anything for i am hiding nothing
hold my hand while i rest my body
then we can whisper until we fall asleep
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nightengale sings

Posted on April 24, 2016 by jaybeasley2
nothing can hide me or bring me back
if i was able to complete the thoughts
going along with all the actions
hovering outside the window that is
telling me i would be happier outside
each direction i pick to out for my walks
needlessly directing me to the same place
going out always seems to lead me to
amazing energies but all of the people who
look from the identical spot that thier
eyes peered out of the day before
shock does not live here any more
include yourself in an invisible fire which
narrowly misses the closeness of reality
gates are all over, but not everyone sees them
sometimes to move on, you have to take a step back
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updated existence

Posted on April 24, 2016 by jaybeasley2
until a resolution has been imagined
perhaps it can not be resolved
during the years i did not care as much as i should
arguments were not worth having very much
the calculations that go into a day when
every person needs to be taken into account
deciding who to bother shouldn’t be a question
equally frantic and relaxed this morning
x,blinking, symbolizing, my phone is no longer working
in a few more hours i find myself
stuck by the side of the road in a broken down car
that is unfortunate circumstances which could happen to
everyone so i laugh and smile and sigh
not that it isn’t frustrating, but i have you and i
cannot be upset at lifes inconveniences anymore
each day above ground is better than the last
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mental emergency

Posted on April 22, 2016 by jaybeasley2

making time to take care of thoughts that won’t
end no matter how much reasoning I do
now I need to get this stress gone
the way that can bring some kind of peace of mind
although I thought I knew what was going on
loneness is not the biggest fear that i have
enter each day like it is the most important one yet
my questions will have to be worded just right
effort must be made to convert the direction
righting the course which is not on the way
growing more as if a plant that is accelerated
end to a brand new way of thinking
needing this break from so many habits
coming from a different future I saw before
you are the beginning of the years I wanted

 

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meaning conversation

Posted on April 18, 2016 by jaybeasley2
making up your mind is an
endless collection of
arguments you have had with yourself when this
night has finally faded blue to day
if you think too hard about it you
never can get a decision when it is
getting hard to think about how you feel
can you just tell me what you are going through
on the occasion you finally reveal to me
needs that you have wanted to express
very important is the way you show me
every piece if what it is you desire
rock music for the times you are frustrated like
solo drives across the state having a soundtrack
answering every silence with a song
these days too long and evenings too short
it drives me crazy when you don’t say what you are thinking
overwhelming as this can be
next few centuries i want to be near you, you see…
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however we travel

Posted on April 17, 2016 by jaybeasley2
happenings which people avoid
on the occasion of a deeper level of movement
while the time will not seem slower
even if the good times are planned
voices rise up the the back of our mind
equally satisfied and fristrated with this moment in time
reliving these tiny amount of closeness
working to make life as great as it can be
easy to forget how difficult this stage can be
tomorrow should not even be thought about today
rediculous as that idea might be
as the years worked so hard to be just like they should be
venom was removed from the events of the past
eager to commit my mind to the new way
love is a dream i still hope
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