time comprehension

Posted on May 21, 2016 by jaybeasley2
touring the past where i once lived
in these last days we all will learn again
maybe realize things from so long ago
even if the future is as seeable as a picture in a frame
complete with the soundtrack that is appropriate
only you can see where i am coming from
my fierce hard headed fiesty mean
princess who has flowers in her hand
right next to you is the dog who knows your mind
eventually i will learn the truth about you
hearts like yours can only be icy for so long
end the holdout and wash in the warmth
now is the time because it goes by so fast
sometimes in the future i can see you loving me
inordinate pauses can cause hesitaion
only letting the fear win can hurt this much
nobody should effect us this way
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little destructions

Posted on May 19, 2016 by jaybeasley2
love has been burning a hole in me
in the way that a house can be wrecked by
tragedy like a fire or a murder
tested in a race that is unexpected or
little tortures that break your spirit slow
end up showing more of yourself than you know
do what you feel the finish line should consist of
even if it means jogging through the flames today
shifting from the future to the present is a
taste of the work required to move on
riddles you placed for yourself far in the past
under the hypnosis of a delusional confidence
coming in above the radar
these tomorrow tempest-filled times tickled
included in the dodging of
only a few hundred bullets of meanness
nowadays heroes are made by dealing with thier life
so don’t judge when a struggle is in front of you
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stabbing ghosts again

Posted on May 17, 2016 by jaybeasley2
starting off ready to make a choice
taking a moment to clarify and verify
as i slowly lose my mind once more
below the window are my favorite shoes
beside the shirt i was tortured and suffered for
in every moment i held on to last until
not one more day could i stand it
get my life all back together again
got my fire and treasure every day
having no more excuses to avoid progressing
often i used to dream about a life like this
showing my true self more and more and more
then i can’t cover up the windows anymore
some of my favorite books were given away
after this year nothing is guaranteed
getting older never really slowed me down
across the years and across the miles i learned much
inside this sphere of yours the world isn’t so clear
nobody gets it all unless they are willing to give it all
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inspiation owned

Posted on May 15, 2016 by jaybeasley2
if i didn’t hear from you today
no thing or person but you can comfort me
sitting here full of worry and
pretending like everything is okay
in a way that should reveal lots of nothing
right now i cannot think of anything but you
after last night i know your heart hurts too
these curses to your health are painfull and i know
in your pain and heart there is no relief
opening your eyes to look at me makes me see
needing to find a way to get you away from the ache
offering you every bit of what i have to give
while you go through tests i work even harder
names if medical details and terms are questioned
emotions can crash down and burn the spirit
do believe that you are strong enough to get through
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suprising impressive

Posted on May 14, 2016 by jaybeasley2
starry nights filled with
unusually radical flavor which can
pursue the strolling individual indoors or
ramming the rest of the quiet into your brain
isn’t the most unusual thing that happened this week
strings in an orchestra rise up when you come in
including me in your life was a big a compliment as ever
normally it takes forever to warm up to someone
getting through bad times to arrive here was worth it
it seems like i knew you lots longer than i did
maybe you even felt the same way
parting the clouds to
reverse the aging process for just now
expect nothing and demand nothing
sometimes life is only here to suprise you
still making you
interesting dinners and repeated new gifts
violet flowers and almond filled chocolates
every time i wake up, i step outside
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protection of property

Posted on May 14, 2016 by jaybeasley2
placing my hand on my head
reaching into the thoughts that assault me
organizing how to fight that plague
these times are made to test your nerves
empty treats don’t live around here anymore
carry me off to the horizon, i ask the wind
trading the stillness for persistant movement
if you want me here then let me know
offer up a sip from today’s golden cup
now that you know how much poison is in it
only you can cause my earthquake to stop
focussed on the current year and not the past
probably always had a good reason
right on time and still a few years late
only you can bring me back to glad acceptance
peering out at the existence we once knew
every curve in the road is just a challenge
ready and waiting to be overtaken
tempest filled times that do not quit
you make nervous storms an enjoyable rocking ship
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mental progression

Posted on May 12, 2016 by jaybeasley2

meaning of a word can be fluid
elements that combine to exhume
notes from the instruments of night
test the waters after you jump right in
among a few good moments the rot can linger
like a friend who doesn’t know how to be nice
prepare yourself for people like this in life
reeking gardens can sometimes mean good things
only the fresh air heals you tonight
getting out and growling around town
reading way too far into everything again
each pair of eyes reveal far too much this time
staying positive and remaining strong
sunset brings hope and sunset brings relief
in a short time
on the grass or out by the front of
nearby places where the neighborhood laughs

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destiny observed

Posted on May 7, 2016 by jaybeasley2
daring the year to get any better
even if these last hundred minutes
stay locked into my memory that can
testify to myself that this glory cannot leave yet
inching my way through this nightmare day
noticing the time crawls better with you in it
your eyes shine like the bluest ocean wave
obeying the pull to the shore we live
below a forest green as you have ever seen
shallow clouds flowing puffy as cotton
ease the stress the office compiled at noon
releasing me from the grasp on an overly strained mind
voting for a way to never leave the trees
effortless hikes when the sunset is this spectacular
don’t even care what time we go home
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patience and stamina

Posted on May 6, 2016 by jaybeasley2
plenty of times i have been grateful and
always thankful each time i wake up
taking nothing for granted and
inside i am singing all the moments of silence
need for closeness with another person to the surface
causing relief from all the hate and disgrace
each touch removing a bit more pain
and lifting the brain up above the clouds and pettiness
nocturnal sounds from deep inside the darkness
doing everything i can to stay true to the color of my soul
showing these changes i went through since anyone knew me last
tasting the waters after i dive right in
away from the land where insults are conversation
murky water that most people dwell in
including the giving up of a purpose or values
no collection of words can pusuade me now
after the way we met i cannot be defeated
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frantic desperation

Posted on May 4, 2016 by jaybeasley2
forgiving words that were asked for
riddled with hints of shy anticipation
as the sun finally begins to show its face
need to be cared for and really wanted
this is the exact kind of thing that drives me crazy
if i could have one wish it would be to
complete my life by keeping you in it
don’t you think its time to find the origional way
everyone has to go through to mesh together
show me the inner rooms of your heart or
please just let me know how long i have to wait and
end this desire to torture myself forever unless i am with you
ready to give myself over to eternity
ashes in the wind as day slowly gives way to night
there was one thing i wanted before i go
it is to have you drift with me into the futures ocean
only now can i say what i am waiting for
not a moment alone anymore
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