showing intensity

Posted on November 8, 2016 by jaybeasley2
some of this life is only for the patient ones
however a person can get over the
overwhelming need to not
wait with just a simple ability to let go
if you are easy to talk to like a shy puppy or
need lots of comfort like the recently divorced
getting in the driver’s seat is not so fun
in case the way the wind changes
nobody will warn you or
tell you what the best next steps to take will be
each and every action is
not reflective of the person as a whole
so remember to keep an open heart to
instances that you have been through
then you look around and see how much everyone is like
you and come to terms with the very face of humanity itself
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willpower destroyed .

Posted on November 3, 2016 by jaybeasley2
when you said what you did
it became clear exactly how you
let the caring overrun everything else
like a wolf who will not share a bone or
playing children who each need thier own toy and crib
only you are the kind who shall
wait as ong as you have to in order to
get what they want or not let someone else get what they want
ribs that cage the rage and
do not deny the diamond blades cutting your insides
empty nest that was never full has a
story to tell if there was any interest yet
there are damaged taste buds to
reveal how off the mark your preferences are
on the occasion that you go that deep into self analysis
yours is the mind only interested in your own
evolution into the type of person you would rather be,
destiny is the clown chasing you
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prepared for future

Posted on November 2, 2016 by jaybeasley2
perhaps you will begin to share your mind
right when the next step has been taken for us
empty your brain into the conversation
place enough trust in me that i
allow myself to also open up completely to
really aching in the depths of my being
each time i think of how far we could go i
do not feel any less about you
for the last three years you say you love me in your own way
or even let me know why you are continuing this
rocky is the path that led us here and i do not mind
finding out that you do not ever want to have children
unless you get married and i know you do not want that
then i am just here to be what you need for now
until the end i am remaining here then be
ready as soon as you cannot say
ending every day with me is still what you want
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for Halloween

Posted on October 30, 2016 by jaybeasley2

reminded-appropriately-dr-jekyll-and-mr-hyde-prose

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slightly dedicated (jack the ripper prose)

Posted on October 27, 2016 by jaybeasley2

slightly-dedicated

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struggling freedoms

Posted on October 20, 2016 by jaybeasley2
so you explained to me again
tonight how you just do not feel
romance like other people do and
unless i can deal with that fact we are not
going to get to be together much longer
getting that into my brain is
like putting rain back into the clouds
intense feelings like mine are just too much
normal people do not mind getting
gifts of love based on devotion and adoration
for you that is just unusual and uncomfortable
really strange how it doesn’t
even occur to you how you made
emotions like this exist in the first place and you
don’t like it when they show thier faces
only uou could revive this arguement in my mind
maybe just a few short years and we
should be able to see eye to eye as we kiss
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disappointment abuse

Posted on October 15, 2016 by jaybeasley2
don’t have any way to explain
into a void of questions needing to know that
some of life is just there to make you wonder
about the little mysteries that hurt so
painfully, the desperate, needy,
perhaps even curiosity starved
ones who only accepting the truth they know
if any truth runs free outside of what they percieve
none of it is accepted and
these mids either rebel or just shut down
many of the answers that do not fit into
every neat little box that has an easy, identifyable explanation
nowadays we want pictures of ghosts or drawings of philosophies
the energies of the universe can not be so simply encompassed
as anyone aware knows of all the ambiguous stories
becoming mythologies in the course of history
unless you are there you don’t know what happened
suffering and love, death and betrayal,
each and every idea filtered through the unseen world
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tasted inspiration

Posted on October 14, 2016 by jaybeasley2
top of the tongue
as the finest drip comes slowly down along
sliding in a pure sugar way
that even honey wishes it could do
egg-shell white shining inside of a shadow
dime color grey reflecting a warm candle
in the sheer of the glass the liquid glow
near the wind blown trees a few raindrops fall
somebody turned on the heat or
perhaps i just felt you walk near
it gives goosebumps to you when i breathe
right on your neck slow and hot
across your fingers rolls an ice cube melting
the sounds you make are the only ones here
into a room where
on the occasion that we are this close
now i can pretend that you actually love me
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visible punishment

Posted on October 12, 2016 by jaybeasley2
very quiet and moving without hesitation
i am not supposed to
speak unless i say just the right thing
acting interested without staring too hard
become more relaxed and polite as the day wears on
like a kitten getting more comfortable per hour passed
even in total silence i can remain fully focussed
perhaps i know your time is money just like mine
unless i hear you talk i do not make a sound
not one move do i make unless you want me to
if i concentrate hard enough my breathing makes no noise
so my attention is completely on you and if you
happen to want a touch i will be near or if
maybe you make a joke my smile and laugh will be appropriate
every bite of the meal will be followed by a napkin wipe
nice to know this is all i to do
to have you continue to keep me around
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security deceased today

Posted on October 8, 2016 by jaybeasley2
sometimes it will really hurt
every moment you can tell what
collected thoughts or feelings of other people are
utilize the walls that you had to
reconstruct over the many years
in time, after you have to dodge the venom
your shrapness will become what you cut a
decisive new path with and if you do not then
eating your own insides out with sadness and guilt will
completely show you how so many other people live
empathy can be actually uncomfortable even if
a lot of defences have been properly established
sields like these have saved many lives or
ended the abuse that made it so painfull to live but
do not stop being exactly as capable as you know you can be
taking chances will be very unrewarding and
overwhelming experience but you
don’t ever know if it is the best risk ever until
after the possiblity comes and
you just take it
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