sure would be as unusual as
possible to have recieved
the kind of treatment
that happened and when you ask
that the ones close to you
have been able to be there for you
but in an unusual fashion
the way that they disappeared
was only so far from what was
you were always told should happen
and if
you can heal
but the hurt
the pain
the feel
the fight
and a wonder
a worry
and i do not want to die
unless i am in a place that
does not even know where i am
coming from
or my name
—