mean

thanks for being there
when I seemingly couldn’t go on
and I needed the person I cared about
most to show up and make me feel
better and draw out the thing that is bothering
me most when I am not sure
I want to talk about it
no, I do, but I may not show it
and if there is one thing I know it is when I
am this tired and frustrated I will say the
wrong thing again,
where were you when I needed you and
was it that you didn’t care that much or were
you not gonna come by in the first place
no matter what I said and you must’ve cared
a whole lot about me in the first place
to have it advance to that level where you
are not going to show up because why?
I cannot imagine that you would be that
selfish and that mean and that lazy so it must
mean that I didn’t mean that much to
you in the first place so I am back to the
place where I hoped I would be
pursued instead of pursuing, or at least
able to talk to you about anything and
everything.
but that is not you…

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About jaybeasley2

a writer, a painter, a poet, a wordsmith
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