entering alternate life

Posted on January 28, 2017 by jaybeasley2
effort matters if you have something to do or not
normal isn’t some idea that really matters anymore
tranquil times have now ended
eventually excuses are worse for wear
rediculous reasons we come up with for anything we do
inside a devoted number of people who
need to have a person who cares for them be very close
getting over it like a critical injury to the heart
access to my inner self was so wise
let your guard down enough to remember that hurt
take a minute to be where you were when it happened
everyone has at least one moment like that in thier life
redeeming my soul has been
not any fear of trying things the crazy way
across the miles i know that you felt me
telling you complaints is the only fear i have at home
equal right have never really existed
letting me know how much you care is all i need
it may never happen but i understand that now
for each day passing more of the mask comes off
ending every day wanting your love
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proportion deceased

Posted on January 28, 2017 by jaybeasley2
paying the price for living this way
ruined by the selfish people who played
options against each other all over the circle
passion that belongs to me will not be allowed
often as the passing of time is observed
right when you are so ready to die
that you are no longer afraid of anything in this world
inside minds a calm universe can be created
only if you show compassion will it be returned
needing to feel some connection is a common
desire that happens to
every person at one point or another in life
capturing what it is like to acually have someone
each time you know you really need them
across the years a few lessons follow me everywhere
some people that you want you will miss forever
eventually there might be a little comfort there
dive right into life the no matter the temperature
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close doors quickly

Posted on January 22, 2017 by jaybeasley2
completing the task i had set for myself
letting all this sorrow die just to face the day
or killing it down before being able to sleep
some of my choices have been taken out of my hands
either way i will find out for myself just how
dormant my drive for self-pereservation lies
one or two times i find that i am hiding emotions
opening my mouth is not usually a good idea at that time
realizing that the only thing i want in this life is to be loved
something i should have given up on long ago
quit doing anything which stops me from finding what i want
useless as our words are to the forest
interesting as a yawn to a cat
common as sand at the beach but
keeping myself sane by having a vast inner life
lift my whole existence by having a lot of hope
your embrace is my sunlight food and drink
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and see the forest

Posted on January 21, 2017 by jaybeasley2
as these beginning conversations
nicely droop across the air at work
doing my best to not show where i live
soaking a heart in the hopes that barely exist
eventually that same road is where i go again
each hour i remind myself to be sure and
tell nobody about our little thoughts like spiders
hanging around every single place i go and
everything i do has bits of thier web in it
from now on i will just watch my words very carefully
offering only an opinion if it is asked for
rough as everything is, i am made of solid stone
every night i rumble harder than the night before
some moods depend on what the universe provides
today i pray to find the gift of relaxation
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emotional emergency

Posted on January 19, 2017 by jaybeasley2
effort put forth when it gets you nowhere
might be a good example on this occasion
of all the feelings that come along with being
treated like something is more important than i predicted
if i was looking for a reason to seek another life
or even saw how i was treated from an outsiders perspective
now i have eyes that are more open and i am
allowing myself to do what makes me feel warm
letting my emotions happen is sort of like
each day is an experience unlike the one before it
making a home place or a loving feeling like a memory
equipped to search but waiting for the
right moment to
get ahold of this emabrace that apparently
exists in so many peoples mind but not my own
nowadays my very own thought process traps me
cornered inside my open minded exploration
you brought me up to your heaven
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after the hypocracy

Posted on January 18, 2017 by jaybeasley2
around the same time that life went through
finding out where the future leads kind of changes
torn between the need for security and
emptyness that lives in you when you let passion die
roaming the vacant halls of my heart shows much
tempest of romance i always wished for
hiding in a bottle that betrays its weariness more each day
emitting a mood unique to itself
having kept good care of such a valued object
you never feel sorry for somebody you stepped on
perhaps up on a shelf is a slightly safer choice than this
one day at a time is the best appoach to this situation
can you put yourself in the shoes of who lives there?
recieve the words of affection like a gift in the mailbox
as it happens i have not recieved that in a long time
collecting all my time
you never feel sorry for somebody this lucky
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delete and destroy

Posted on January 8, 2017 by jaybeasley2
directed to test the surroundings
emotions have been switched on now when we are
leveraged experiences like past persona passing away
ending the time of doing less than i could
terminated agreements are waiting with friends on hand
eager to bring up the mistakes of all kinds and types but
after what i have seen nothing really matters anymore
no more putting the final foot forward without thought
dedicating my actions to the future i need
during these times the final result is vital because
ending up where your aim could be
something to keep on the tip of your mind always
take my arm and lets find out where our wishes reside
readiness is a component of all successfull plans
only when i can finally show you my heart will
yearnings become our two shared lives together
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permanent emergency

Posted on January 7, 2017 by jaybeasley2
pursuit of a better place to be
easy to believe but not easy to perceive
remember the desire no matter what happens
minor misunderstandings like a symbol of big problems
accidents that happen to be a
needless torture that is being put up with
ending the need to think about anything personal
neat arrangements of
these uncomfortable moments in piles of depression
evidence of what i go through for you
must i get so much less than what i need from you
each time people get treated bad they gain new walls
right in time for my own round of
getting my mind right
eventually i have got to get on living the path that
now is shouting at me every time i sit still
can i just be myself?
you bet i can
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my skin is hungry again

Posted on January 5, 2017 by jaybeasley2
maybe i didn’t make it obvious or
you just didn’t notice how bad it was
some of the times you saw my needs
kisses like this can heal as much as they feel
inspiration finds me in a way that seems
night time and fog joining up as a mystery
inside the desire of unobserveable freedoms
stuck into a box without walls or corners
suffocating in the hopes and dreams
that are fullfilled
after all that you have been through who can blame you
right now i just want to be held but it is
very unlikely you will give me that sometime soon
in the last few months we have cuddled
now i see that is enough
got to admit that once in a while i need affection
aware that all i ask for is important
giant desires that are struggling for air and
adored by a painfull ache in a suffering heart
instead of waiting for what i want i should ust go get it
now the stab of night time cold feels good
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determined planning

Posted on January 4, 2017 by jaybeasley2
do not dwell on your mistakes
every day can be a new beginning
take your time when you want to if it makes
easier to take everything you have to do
really getting the most out of your times
means trading in the stress that is here for
inclinations to just take everything in stride
nowadays living in sadness and fear is way too common
either you give in to being run over or you find your way out
different people have different ways of getting by
peer into the depths of yourself if you
like to learn about the meaning of your life
across the minutes of silence you can feel
needs that involve a calm and peaceful place
names of parts of this world that inspire and have passion
imperfect things and areas are what are even better if
near by are those who appreciate originality
get into the idea that variety is the spice
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