dropfoot nation

Posted on June 29, 2019 by jaybeasley2
do what you know you have to so get there
right now,
overhead there is a source of light,
penetrating this darkness,
framing a lost direction,
off in a color entirely suprising and
optimal in motivation and energy given,
testing the boundaries of
normally recognized endurance like
a connection to a soul that is no longer around,
that can effect your activity of every kind,
it can not be allowed to impact
on your spirit enough to make you completely broken or bitter,
now is the time to change even harder
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imperfect ability

Posted on June 28, 2019 by jaybeasley2
introspection and the last way home
maybe come around once a day
processing each occasion like a new medication
enter the book of my past so very slowly
riding these writings like a truck on parade
from now on i should give up before i try
empty would not be a good way to descibe my life
cats in a maze would be a good metaphor
training myself to see my current existence
all through the lens of my personal history
because otherwise its like a bad doctor visit
incredible patience and understanding
lets me appreciate exactly where i am lucky to be
if there is one thing i am happy about it is you
this is one thing i know to be true
you know it too
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community deceased

Posted on June 27, 2019 by jaybeasley2
confined within the cave i made,
only my own thoughts arrive to greet me,
making me think in circles again and again,
might struggle under my own inconsistencies,
up untill my confinement i have not
needed to see the level of my own sanity,
if anyone existed who cared i would
tell them the story and know what to say,
yellow fire light is the only valued companion,
don’t think i should open my mouth to talk ever again,
eradicate my need to be social like killing a fly,
complete the closing of a cage for all time,
empty the motivation and get used to solo company,
after another month goes by who knows,
some night it just feels like anything goes,
eventually i found you and the story came true,
doing everything i can just to please you
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cold blooded summer

Posted on June 25, 2019 by jaybeasley2
currently starting out like a race horse
out of the gate picking up steam
letting the pace really get going
do not let that brain infection wake up
branded by a past that was not mine
lean into the changes like you are hard headed
over the top is how you live because it is how you think
operating on too little caffiene
don’t know how to find the amount of time i need
every morning seems the start of a marathon
deny the urge to do things which are misleading
some of the grey in the sky spread to inside me
unless i get a change i am not liking the
maddening direction each day keeps going
making questionable choices are people all around yet
every time you touch me i can recharge
right now i need to give you a thousand kisses
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and optional death

Posted on June 23, 2019 by jaybeasley2
accepting where you are at and
not settling in to the same old rut
deny the comfortable complacency
organized by the mindset of not experementing
perpetuated beneath such a uninspired roof
twisted all up inside from years of mistreatment
including amounts of time locked up and undefended
or arriving at the stage where works are commanded
nightmares are made of moments like these
almost every torture leads back to things like these
longing for something you may never see again and
doing your best to do whatever you can to not think of that
ending the nights by knocking the mind out ’till morning
agents of change sneaking all around the personality
there are times i need you near me, honey
hate to picture passing away without your kisses
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finish line sprint

Posted on June 22, 2019 by jaybeasley2

one hour was all it took
to figure out the steps
that must be taken to be
happy in a hundred days
and it becomes a very specific method to aim for when…
the present situation is becoming far too much
to handle and when each new occasion
reminds of where the final goal has often rested besides
yet being aware of the end result when each next
step is attained and try not to do anything halfway
but if you work hard enough and get there
then every day will be like your birthday
and then if you keep that in mind it makes ambition easier
to find and if you let yourself get distracted
just come back to it

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pretty late

Posted on June 18, 2019 by jaybeasley2
coming out from the shadows and
into the light of real understanding after
so long without a glimmer of hope but
isn’t it amazing what a little bit of someone
believing in you can do for the motivation or at
least a reminder that you are actually a person with
value answering the call
of destiny’s grey door
then finding out what your soul is woken up for
and what really matters to you anymore yet you
have to look inside and find out what gifts you will
continue to encourage to evolve and at that
that time you will learn what is known some
days are like broken bones
once snapped twice as strong when healed
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pretending moonlight

Posted on June 18, 2019 by jaybeasley2
don’t ever hesitate to write down
everything that occurs to you because
time is of the essence
and a few more moments
might be the one instance that
can improve your outlook on the whole day
and it only takes one more little
moment to remind you what drives you
and supports you and what seems like
forever could actually be the last day and
nobody knew who you ever really were
anyway and then it would be far too late
after the fact is too far away
and not worried existentially
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checking in again

Posted on June 12, 2019 by jaybeasley2
can you be there for the help which can
heal the wounds inflicted by
every new crossroads, over time, by
coming together then get outside your shell,
keep in mind how much we wanted things to turn out well,
if the temptation to fade away still exists,
nobody but you can fire up and make sure your soul persists,
getting a look around instead of at your own reflection,
it can change your wisdom base if you see clearly in all directions,
notify this realm you will change it all after,
and then universal knowledge can share the transfer,
growing in an understanding,
and you are the ony one i want to
intensely fade your way so you see
nothing else matters anymore
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ideas style sheet

Posted on June 8, 2019 by jaybeasley2

introduced to a brand new fear and
didn’t ever know that it could be there before,
effort given now has a far different connotation,
added to the previously obsessed over, the
situation currently at hand,
symphonic undertones of implied indifference,
talking to nobody at all but
your self is playing both sides of the conversation,
like suggesting taking a cute picture with a large sharp blade,
every day is torture when you hurt this way,
should I perish I will still go away smiling,
had a great time when I was here, didn’t I,
even made a few friends and had a few parties,
empathy helped me as much as it hurt me,
this is my song of destiny

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