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grow more into this spot
raised to do the right thing again
ordering the best food from my favorite place
while i stroll i can recall
interesting times in this part of town
near where the water fountain once was
gotta stay cheerful like there is not a choice
candle light in a window and
open puddles reflect the moon’s face
needing to absorb as much fresh air as i can
very in the moment but something is not right
even the paper and pen do not look right
reading the words i wrote
something looks different than i ever meant
alone on a walk just like always
there is no sign telling me where i am
identify the direction by where the mountain is
on my head there is no hat
no shoes on my feet

finding the moon smiling down again

introduced to the eve like a dear friend

now getting to see something you missed over and over

associated with history and memories

letting each new experience

remind you why life is so very precious

emitting the glow of a brand new view

motivated to go where you are needed

on the off chance you may also be remembered or

valued like the lucky coin you always take with you

and special like finding a way down the mountain

letting the river choose its own path

sing a little song to the birds in the trees

introduced to a few beautiful hours

generate the goal needed to arrive

not content just being alive

end of the street, a few things pop into mind,
not every memory is bad or good just
eloquent like an enduring story,
revolve in and around the pondering of a
great amount of deep significant experiences,
introducing themselves to the thought process,
equally impacting as the
shade under the tree or the strong caffine drink,
beneath the heat just keep on persisting,
once you have arrived here there is no return,
offering yourself up to the will of the future,
some terminology is more understood if you have been
there and know what mountaintop it comes from,
in those clouds rests the answer you wanted,
not one choice seems right untill
getting up every day is much easier to forget

eventually remember those claws on my back

money is a demon that hides your thoughts

offers you an excuse to be greedy or proud

there are temptations to get angry daily

it isn’t possible to put me there anymore

off on the distance i see that in my history

nearby the connection recently obtained

answering a call from

little experiences

found when i peer deep down into my joy

only you are what i need in this world

silent kiss all the whole day long

shifting the entire way of thinking of things

intermitten little sunshine

lifting stress off my shoulders

daring and brave and just showing the ways
ending the hesitation and just
testing those waters before diving in and
every day will now be once again my friend
risking my future by being
more of a great person than ever because
it is the time in my life to fix things and do it right
nothing will be the same after this
inspired to be the change you want to see but
nearly broke myself years ago
growling about the past is useless like
fixing a painting you are just going to paint over
accessing the part of the brain that is reprogrammed
chapters of a book written but not released
take shape in the small area assigned to it
only when a levitating picture comes through can a
realization hit my mind’s eye

And then it happens
Walking outside
Feeling the charcoal
The smell like fire and I begin burning
Like I am in a living hell where at one time
I try to follow instinct and dodge
The horror around
But not all people have to
Not all people want to
The pain of souls
The heat we all feel
The pain of the stressed minds
The ache of confusion in interaction
The fear and anxiety
Which will complete every day
Willpower dies when
Everyone has to think before they act
We will get through this
But death is a polite friend so close
We all fry under the heat
Of this future of incredible selfishness
And those who are kind
Burn the most