jaybeasley2

accepting where you are at and
not settling in to the same old rut
deny the comfortable complacency
organized by the mindset of not experementing
perpetuated beneath such a uninspired roof
twisted all up inside from years of mistreatment
including amounts of time locked up and undefended
or arriving at the stage where works are commanded
nightmares are made of moments like these
almost every torture leads back to things like these
longing for something you may never see again and
doing your best to do whatever you can to not think of that
ending the nights by knocking the mind out ’till morning
agents of change sneaking all around the personality
there are times i need you near me, honey
hate to picture passing away without your kisses

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venting as you rush out the door
every part is aching to escape
racing to the car and over the hill
yearning to be hand in hand with you as
quietness joins up with the road
unusual futures are getting ready for us all
impatience has given up trying to effect
calm moments bring you to tension relief
keeping the heart pure for this reason
inspect every little element of a soul so pretty
nearby the wind is giving some signals
tasting the passion
ride the highway while singing to yourself
on the tip of my tongue is your name
doing a quick little re-assessment
until a sunset comes
cooling you off is just the cloud’s job
these song lyrics are so perfect
i want you kissing me more than i want food or sleep
ours is a specific understanding
nobody raises my spirits like your mind

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getting on the hardest adventure
riddled with reasons to keep going
even when you doubt how to still be here
after the start of this new season of life
things look better and brighter and not
only the moment right before sleep is the best
when this month is done the energies rumble
next week should take its time arriving
ears that don’t hear after a certain hour with
recieved requests to connect only to you
sustained over a valley of being drawn in different diections
having to make, need, rush, persue, play and pry
it was a person i like and respect who said
place the ability to keep working, producing and creating in me

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can you tell me that
really all questions are the same
until you know where you
should have said something different
have you not been as
aware as you know you could’ve or should’ve been
don’t doubt your
overly assumptive bizarre instincts
right now you are the most charming smile
and i do not want to let you see me like this
taking time to breathe before i speak this time
i am not able to allow myself to be controlled anymore
on the table is my only motivation
nearly holy music that sets my teeth on edge
some of the most catchable thoughts hide there

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