torn down

Posted on August 7, 2014 by jaybeasley2

and crumbling
the day we went apart again
and across the cement
we were stumbling into the cold
as we work madly into the
unstopping grace of our good night
and the ways we bonded wept
as the sunset of our days came in
over the time we spent in each others den
made a cool way
and we met our final destiny in a
group cave that could
have never seen us coming
not this time or even once more
but we can not make
a new trail because
we have not made peace with the
bunch of words when we first said them
but you got rid of all the mistakes
with me
so I walked down the street
all alone

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untitled

Posted on August 7, 2014 by jaybeasley2

I am scared
I flinch and twitch
I have been with people
who hurt my body
who abused me in so
many ways I cant even say
and it stuck
I still jump
I still feel like I cant trust
I am always looking
over my shoulder
in my home where I should be secure
I will always seek
to hide myself from the view
of any other person
I still really hate pain even
if it is during play
and I can tell I am still
running scared

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Untitled

Posted on August 7, 2014 by jaybeasley2

The long and lonesome road
Home reminds me
In between trees and
Breezes and flowering shrubs and rain
Several days come back to haunt me
I am not sure how you found me
And I don’t want to lose you
But I am now the only one
Who will notice this pain and
I may not even know how to
Tell you how much you mean to me
But just so you know
I am waiting for the day
We can no longer wait for each other
To resist the urge to kiss
And that may be here right now
You bother to put the effort
To know me but I am yours
The things you can guess
That I want
Are probably right so please
Tell me something
After I tell you I love you
Nothing matters more

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Untitled

Posted on August 7, 2014 by jaybeasley2

Longing for your touch

I travel out and about

To where you are, happily,

Glancing about the sky and

Making sure it will never

Again be one single day

That passes between the

Times I say to you the love

That endures through

All the distractions

All the mistakes

All the shiny rain

All the multiple invitations

All the late morning sleep-ins

All the longed for embraces

All the words dedicated to you

All the waiting for attention

Let me show you what

This exuberance is

And we shall stay together

And stay strong

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comfy sip

Posted on August 6, 2014 by jaybeasley2

these
are the wistful moments,
shallow times,
there is now
a kiss waiting for you,
but the song changes gears,
and I miss you so,
while the rain starts again
there are ants on the hill
and a bird
on the linoleum
having a drink with me,
but you are not here.
I wasn’t always yours,
you weren’t always mine.
just feels like it…

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be ready

Posted on August 6, 2014 by jaybeasley2

broken-ness comes,
first in the way that asking for
asking for an opinion no longer happens,
then by the fulfilling of any
other friends wishes before the
taking into consideration of you,
after that the making of a change
that could’ve been a simple step in
decorating instead of the destruction
and elimination of anything you ever hoped
to be a reminder of past times,
followed by the recommendation
that not one person believed but a lot of
them knew was coming, and that was to
discontinue contact with the discarded people,
so hey then, listen, I do still care,
but you would rather give in
then say no when
they are standing there.
be ready.

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sore

Posted on August 5, 2014 by jaybeasley2

can it be that I
am the very most thankful
because I am the one
with none of the regrets,
your sentence of life,
my sentence of love and
the final last breath of warm
reassuring hate, and fury, and
oh, great lasting day we made,
ruined by blasting on
trough the incomplete distance that
we have decided to waste the
entire year gripping and growing on,
wanting a drink and trying to
work the flesh of too many
friends that are not our good
wanting moon type of bloody mess,
companions worse for wear yet we run
from those willing to help us
play in the long tooth evil we have
seen as the love of our
very lives like the days of old
splashing red, and
being drugged down inside
the mystic
lunar eclipse

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lost

Posted on August 5, 2014 by jaybeasley2

your hand reminds me that you
probably wasted away the day
that I would’ve stayed around to find
out what you had to say
but it has ben a long time since
you recognized any of this
because you made me feel so great
that you would bother to take me “as is”
I wanted to tell you so much about
the feelings that made me want
to jump on the roof and scream and shout
you may not want to hear my
voice or maybe you just want to take
away my ability to have a choice
every word you sent me fit and
I am not buying from the business
I am merely a part of it
but if I go north or just
try to disappear
don’t stop trying to find me
I hear you loud and clear

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new night

Posted on August 5, 2014 by jaybeasley2

the tub sadly sat
it was not hot
where were we then and who saw you act?
there was a chance
we could be fun
& had cupcakes
we made a courtyard
become the last dance
like a medieval song slowly sung
a place we hadn’t agreed on
you saw there was no liquor
I saw there was no dessert
we haste our taste
we dilly dally
we had a little too much accomplishment this morn
you said lets move on
I did
I did it
I didn’t argue
I did sit
you had a good feel

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Assessment (wet from from my eye tonight means…)

Posted on August 5, 2014 by jaybeasley2

you have arrived.
I was far away in the
land of dream, and you came. like a
slow ghost riding a breeze;
you coasted up to me
and with a smile that
can only mean good things
and a hug like I just
knew you would be waiting for me,
you paused your
existence just long enough
to say goodbye.
I am so shining and filled
with the thought of your
glowing silver love
that the hours will seem like
days, and I can tell you
how much I need to see you
until we meet again.
a golden moonbeam
lights my tear of longing…

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