jaybeasley2

When life goes into double overdrive
You have options
There is always
Giving up, but nobody chooses, unless
You have already been so beaten down that…
You cannot face it anymore. And you can
See it in the look that ‘people have when life
Had beaten them down enough that they
Give up. You can carry on,
The same old way that you always have been
Without trying too hard to change it or even
Making any waves or trying tip stir up the waters, just managing to keep your head up enough to keep on going and that is the best you can do; but the reaction that would help the most is to put yourself into double time as well, and grab the chance to change. There are plenty of opportunities to deny, but only so many to really do things with gusto, and be a brave person facing the horror of a life unlived. It is your life! Don’t really treat it like a Christmas present you halfway wrapped and forgot to properly fill. Put all the fun and fireworks and fury and excitement you want in it, then wrap it all up in the rest of the calender year and let’s go! You are the biggest obstacle to your dreams so get out there and do your thing!!! And don’t let yourself down!

portray yourself as a real
original version of your
previous personality come back around and
use that mask you have bothered to create
like a parachute that might save you but
argue about the ways that you have changed
requested people to see you as nice
then tease and insult and critique relentlessly
emerge as a person surprised at what people say
make as many friends as you want but if a
person you want to be with does it you don’t like it
entering a weekend getting no help with your illness
starving for company but asking is like a toothache
ten years go by before kindness arrives