preferred distance (enough)

Posted on May 11, 2019 by jaybeasley2
pleasing no one, I ghosted away,
releasing myself into the night and
enduring the company that midnight air provides,
for now just throw your pride away and
end every night gratefull for the next day but
really do not know if it will ever arrive,
right now i just have to concentrate on the task,
even though it is enough of a trial to try and survive,
doing the deed and crushing this work is a
deal only made by people trading time for money, i think
if you grind yourself into the ground maybe you can
stay above water long enough to
take a tiny moment every day in coming to acceptance
as a lucky enough person to be where i am at,
not at the correct time of year,
can you please come kiss me my dear,
every night with you is a exceptional vehicle
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perspective point

Posted on May 11, 2019 by jaybeasley2
perched way out there on
each new morning’s broken horizon
rests the complication of our visible hunter
staying dead is the body of last month
preferring to forget what is necessary
eventually the awareness of always being preyed upon
can make a predator out of you
trampled on by the current conditions
into the weather patterns of a tornado mood
vital as the alcohol was to a good time when
every next day was as painfull as a migrane
purposefully avoiding what doesn’t hurt bad enough
optional choices that no longer seem optional
including the waking up after last night’s party
now i pray to come home to you
where the night is so true
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progress horizon

Posted on May 10, 2019 by jaybeasley2
playing a game just to make it through the day
riddled with experiences of the
ordinary sort, but made all the more
great with the challenge of getting one more person
ready to have a better day with a touch of
energy that is filled with honest positivity and
someone pulled me out of my dark pit when i
so very much really needed it and the
happiness was as much a suprise and shock as
ordinary life previously had none of that for me,
remembering the old ways was as much of a pleasure
if the simple times were with someone who actually
zoned in on togetherness instead of zoning me out,
only you warm me up
not that i don’t run hot already
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constant following

Posted on May 5, 2019 by jaybeasley2
collectively seeing the change
organized by those supposedly in charge,
not that they do too much,
so they don’t want you to work too hard or
take what you have learned and really
apply it to any other problems in another direction,
never think very hard about solutions, or even
take a step back and try to improve the process,
fear and anxiety like a workplace one-two punch,
october feelings but slow july experiences,
light comes in too early and sticks around
like a friend at a party you wish wasn’t invited,
or a conversation with people speaking 3 different languages,
while contemplating life, time does not stop,
if you pay attention then existence opens its wings,
negative energy and people can no longer effect you,
growing not grovelling will get your mind right
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internal adjustment

Posted on May 4, 2019 by jaybeasley2
it isnt a problem with you, it is with me, and
nobody wanted me around for long anyway,
the good will i spread around
even came back every once in a while,
returning things borrowed is something done to me
not nearly as often as i am the one doing it,
and i say thank you a thousand times before you’re welcome,
located my awareness after years of regret,
across the heat my body is dragged,
drowning in a steam made from emotion supressed,
jump out of my chair to get out as fast as i can,
unless i make changes i might just as well die here,
stagnant life has never been a close friend of mine,
torn between the ice and the shape my life is becoming,
must not forget the concentration my mind values,
eventually we all get horizontal,
not a day goes by
that i do not value you
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portray selections

Posted on May 1, 2019 by jaybeasley2
permanent as a slap
on the wrist is the deserved punishment for this
rewards for misbehaving
take turns arriving on your doorstep
ready and waiting for the next dance
after the destruction of tonights motivation like
yesterday’s running away or even
some part of this morning’s headache
enveloping the mood of a terrible occasion
like a young kid bad at open communication
eventually showing how tough the spirit is
culminating in the real development of hardness of mind
that can now be shown to the entire world and
i am thankful that i am the one
offering a culmination of converging agents and
now i know i will never stop again unless
someone puts an arrow through my heart
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display deconstruction

Posted on April 30, 2019 by jaybeasley2
daring the year to become
increasing in challenges and ideas,
something rising up in the theme of
pain and discomfort and slowly begins gathering
lean momentum trained in the fire of last winter,
allowing the temptation of knowledgeable words
yearning to be set free from the
discipline of time and the prison of silence,
expressions conveyed like
coming outside like a violent hailstorm or
only showing care for someone because you worry,
not thinking about it too hard like
someone who only gives people attention
that seeks them out in the first place
really speaks out about an incredible level of selfishness,
untill i explained it i was not sure that
calling someone out would make anything better,
the agony was there but not inquired about,
in time the clock will really be seen ticking
on the edge like a river moments from overflowing,
now is definitely always the time
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wasted inspiration

Posted on April 28, 2019 by jaybeasley2
when I accepted the last and
accomplished my task i was not
set up to complete the final days
that were set up before me any longer
each direction was not the same way in
days long ago where i started from and
indications of the compulsory wishes that
now seemed so far away and long gone
selecting the absolute best path to be
prepared for
included in the only messages left to display
reaching into the back of your brain and
attempting to recall
the last time it was that important to anyone
it was because there was
only so much time before i was gone and
now i am
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facets

Posted on April 27, 2019 by jaybeasley2
during the breaking of the morning
it became apparent
that something had changed
in the way an entire observation
of the happenings which are filtered
into our corner existence
are now each with thier own meaning
and an underlying current
like a seasonal whisper in the air
revealing how each occurence in life
has its own independent inner denotation
which can be a significance all on its own
and everything has a distinct psychological implication
to reveal to you
when you are able to concieve it
and a distinct spiritual meaning
that you can contact once you know
that it exists
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downtown romance

Posted on April 25, 2019 by jaybeasley2
don’t remember how we met
or even what state we might have been in
we could have been in a train or maybe a store
not likely we were in a bar unless it was a holiday
the outfit i was wearing is the same one i always have on
only your eyes lighting up when we met not your clothes
was it a monday morning or a friday night i don’t know
now that i think i do know your hair was up
rings on every one of your fingers except one
off behind you somewhere there was a plant
must have handed my attention over completely
as those first words come out of your mouth
never felt so elevated just by a simple conversation
could not possibly have dreamed where this future leads
every day and night just seems more close
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