I am scared
I flinch and twitch
I have been with people
who hurt my body
who abused me in so
many ways I cant even say
and it stuck
I still jump
I still feel like I cant trust
I am always looking
over my shoulder
in my home where I should be secure
I will always seek
to hide myself from the view
of any other person
I still really hate pain even
if it is during play
and I can tell I am still
running scared