as the little old men

gather and share coffee

and stories of the times they

know will make each other laugh

one single solitary leaf

comes from above

to land on the blank  page

I have spent the past few hours contemplating

and as it sits

vein side up

I am stirred from my silver lining

to this exact moment

right now in this very minute

all I have tried and been

all I have done and seen

comes rushing back in full detail

and I can either change course and get

what I want out of life

by striving, straining, doing

or join the rest of the world in

being a worker for someone else’s cause

all this time

I have been

building a cocoon

for someone else’s caterpillar…